Do you ever feel tired? I'm not talking about the physical kind of tired, I am talking about the mental kind. I find myself longing for the days when I used to work in the mail room and run through crap load of mail to meet a pickup deadline. At the time some of that seemed stressful, now it just makes me laugh at the thought. There were days when I would get home and be beat from being on my feet all day, lifting things and going up and down the stairs 100 times. But you know what? When my day was done... it was done.
Now I sit at a desk. I have a computer and even now a new iPad. I can make decisions and even have people to delegate work too. But yet I am tired. I go to sleep at a decent time, but that doesn't mean that my brain shuts down. Actually I don't think it EVER shuts down. There is always a new project to worry about. A meeting to prepare for where I have to tell clients what can and can't be done. There is always a few people that you have to manage that are completely draining. There are far too many dumb ass conversations that I have to listen too and people that are in positions that they have no business being in.
Some days I long for the simple life where I can blow off this corporate world and do something completely different. Some days I wish I could just set my brain to "operation shutdown" mode and close at least 9 of the 10 boxes that are open. Unfortunately most of the fun things to do don't pay very much, I guess that's fair. But since I am not a Kardashian or a house wife of Orange County, I guess I will suck it up a little longer. My short term coping strategy...take Friday off as a vacation day : )
You've got a job, be thankful for that. I've been out of work for so long, I don't even know what I do anymore. Maybe you laugh at that. I'm funnier than any ten unemployed people you can think of today. Funny doen't put presents under the tree this year. At least I don't have to touch an i-phone. White-collar angst sickens me. I am better off out of work, but your post makes me feel bad for the both of us.
ReplyDeleteI think that's why you are so good at what you do, you actually care. Sometimes the slack-asses of the world seem to have it made as they show up for work, barely do their job (or care about what is going on there)and skip out early everyday. Sad thing is the paycheck still hits their banks. I think you feel more fullfilled doing what you are doing, and take it from a Stay at home working for the weekend isn't too shabby sometimes :)
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